As I drove in the driveway, wanting nothing more than to just sit down and rest awhile, I glanced at the yard. Apparently I had grossly neglected it over the last couple of weeks. I grabbed my headphones, started the mower, gritted my teeth and took off. My lower back started killing me almost immediately. Lifting all of my TOT equipment and bending over picking up the equipment many times a day had taken its toll. I got about half of the yard done and my hamstrings started getting tight. I could see I was not going to be able to finish! As overgrown as my yard was, there was no way I could leave it the way it was. I turned the mower off and sat down to try to figure out what to do. I cranked Pandora up, and the following song came on:
http://youtu.be/Ao1iaIxRAA8
"Lord, I Need You - Chris Tomlin" Lyrics
by Passion Worship Band | from the album Passion: Here For You
Verse 1:
Lord I come, I confess
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You're the one that guides my heart
Chorus:
Lord, I need You, oh I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
Verse 2:
Where sin runs deep, Your grace is more
Where grace is found is where You are
And where You are Lord I am free
Holiness is Christ in me
Yes where You are Lord I am free
Holiness is Christ in me
Bridge:
So teach my song to rise to You
When temptation comes my way
And when I cannot stand I'll fall on You
Jesus You're my hope and stay
And when I cannot stand I'll fall on You
Jesus You're my hope and stay
It hit me that during this crazy week, I had failed to stop and rest, both physically and spiritually. This is admittedly one of my biggest weaknesses! It comes with the territory of my DNA. I come from a long line on non-resters! Every female as far back as I can go, on my mom's side of the family, is as ADHD as you can get. We are blessed with a bounty of energy, and cursed with the fact that we are constantly on the go. Even when I am "resting," my mind is going through the list of all of the things I am not currently doing. It is no wonder that I am constantly tattered and feeling overwhelmed. I have to make a very conscious decision to sit and rest in His presence. My back was feeling so much better after sitting and resting for a few minutes. I felt like I could finish the daunting task of tackling my yard. My soul felt lifted and ready to face the rest of the day! Just as our physical bodies get tired and need rest, so do we tire spiritually.
Lord, please stop me and help me remember how very much I need my time with you each and every hour. You know how hard it is for me to rest! These times are fast and furious, and the world tells us we are weak when we are unable to keep on keeping on without stopping! Remind me how much better I am when I stop to acknowledge You and spend time with you.
"Lord, I need You, oh I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You"
