I've recently found the most amazingly wise woman to follow. Her name is Regina Brett, and she has been a single mom, breast cancer survivor, and is wise beyond her 54 years! She wrote a little ditty called "45 Life Lessons, and 5 to Grow On." They all struck a cord with me, but the one that has become my mantra of sorts is, "Things can change in the blink of an eye, but don't worry, God never blinks." Wow, now that is one refreshing statement. How comforting to know that even when our world is changing ever so drastically, God is in complete control and never blinks. He knows what is, what has been, and what is to come.
On that note, I approach this blog with a new outlook. It seems my life has been changing for the past 3 years on a daily basis. Each time we round a corner, something new awaits. Most of this newness has been a challenge, to say the least. However, my new newness is one of joy, restoration, and a hope for smoother roads ahead. It's amazing how our God works. When things happen that we don't understand, that hurt us, that confuse us, we have to accept the fact that our God is soooo far ahead of us in His plan. He knows things we could never understand. 17 years ago, I was in a similar situation. I was just out of college, young and free, and had just met the most wonderful, handsome guy. I thought he was the one within a month or so of dating. However, things changed when I called him one day after dating for about 2 months, and asked him what he'd been doing. His response, "I took my 5 year old daughter to her first day of kindergarten today." SHOCK!!! I had no idea, and he had wanted to wait to tell me for his own reasons. However, after the shock wore off, I grew to accept and even to love her. Circumstances mounted, and the immaturity of this 23 year old, forced me to make the decision to bale. He was going to school, paying child support, wrecked his only source of transportation, lost his insurance, etc. Times were tough for him, and I was unable to handle his baggage at the time. At the same time, a doctor at the hospital had been asking me everyday if I still had my boyfriend. I'd tell him yes. He would ask the next day. On the day after I told Mike it was not going to work out at the time, the doctor asked me the question, and this time my reply was "no." He asked me out and the next segment of my life began. I married him, had 3 beautiful children and marriage that slowly died over those years.
Mike went on with his life, and I with mine. Forward 17 years and we reconnect through a friend on facebook. As God would have it, we both are divorced, single, and have found that those sparks that were there are still alive. He is the sweetest, most amazing man I have ever met. He has given me hope that I thought was completely lost. I had NO plans of ever getting involved with anyone again, but God always has His own plan! Only He could've written such a story. He makes me feel like the
me" I lost somewhere along the way. It is a story that seems to be going from ashes to beauty. Of course, the story is just unfolding. Who knows where God will take it. There are 3 children involved, who will play a huge role in the story. But for now, I am loving this chapter! " Things can change in the blink of an eye, but don't worry, God never blinks."
